events in my life and what is now happening between Leonor and me alone. It is why it is so important to post this picture for a 2nd time this week. Now, it is much more relevant.This evil, wicked, capricious, malicious magician called 'Blogger' simply destroyed it.
I cannot possibly repeat it. But it is an immense loss, because it now will remain only in my head, when I wanted it to come out for the world to know. And its origins inmy strange gift of clairvoyance that makes death so easy, so totally unfrightening for me. There is a long history of experience. I don't want to make anyone believe IN anything. This is mine and can only be mine. I ask you only to believe that something is happening, because I can recognise it from other times.
Briefly, this is just to say that something strange is now happening between Leonor and me. Her hands look for mine, she wants me to hold her hands, stroke them, kiss them, whisper her stories. you could be excused for thinking "Like two lovers". It isn't like that at all. I believe she is taking strength, confidence,comfort and reassurance through my hands and my gentle urging as preparation for her final journey.
All I can tell you this second time is that I know what I know. I am starting to believe since 2 hours ago that she feels it like that. Believe me, I have been through this before. It feels wonderful. Believe me. And it helps me to be more prepared, more ready to help those who are not at all prepared for the finality of the ending
4 comments:
I admire your strength from the heart and I do know that there are things in life that we know and feel but just can´t explain. I think they are beyond our reasoning and understanding, no matter how strange this may sound. My prayers are with you.
no hay finales.. no los hay... pero cuando se vive una situación en que la convicción del fin existe, se necesita una fuerza, una generosidad y un amor enorme para estar ahí.
No olvides que si tú no estás bien, no puedes ayudar, así que cuidate y nútrete de cariño y aire fresco y risas y flores. Y continua aprendiendo todo lo que debes aprender.
Your strength and comfort is important to her. It is good that she can feel peace and love at this time.
I like Fernando Pessoa's citation that Papalaguiu has on her blog: "A morte é a curva na estrada. Morrer é só não ser visto". You are a wonderful and brave person, NM, helping L. to turn that bend. Just don't forget to take care of yourself too.
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