Monday, December 18, 2006

I'm Nearly Out of Patience & Time for This



This enormous albatross-like seagull, that I found yesterday after taking a ferryboat ride across the Tejo from Lisbon to Caçilhas, seemed to be telling me something.
I have little time left anyway and maybe I should just quit now before this corrupted ideal of a Beta/google/blogger drives me insane. If the thunder doesn't get you, the lightning will.

18 comments:

Jenny said...

Don't give up!
I think the gull was saying something else - maybe your truth shall set us free!

Tea said...

Love the gull pics. I`m fed up too! I have wasted so much time trying to leave comments and with a slow dial up connection it just is so beyond my patience LOL
Glad I could at least after a few time outs, rather than always back to square one.... leave one for you :)

tea
xo

Anonymous said...

You have so much to offer us MS. Don't you dare give up!!! BETA is a *****expletive**** but don't let it get you down. I think Jenney's comment says it all
Rx
back to posting as anon today....more expletives

Anonymous said...

I love the Gulls, The colour, i have not seen a blue sky like that for a long time.I showed Monica,(she helps me in the house) she said one word WOW!!

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Anonymous said...

This is not about giving up, just about doing something. The problem is that you don't know what you want for yourself because that would require too much initiative for yourself.
Staying or flying away? In both cases it requires a decision.
Will you be waiting until the decision is taken for you without actually having to do something?
Don't make things worse or more melodramatic, make them better, for everyone's sake.Instead of black or grey, see white for once.
With all my love and positive urges.
Miss P

Icarus said...

Well, sweet miss p, that puts me firmly in my place, does it not?

Jenny said...

Wow, Miss P. socked it to you! So... is she right?

Icarus said...

She seems to have that invisible touch. She has never been wrong.

Audrey said...

And it looks like the lightning got you Mile...lol....Ms P given you the surge you needed perhaps?

The photos are as its already been said WOW!!!

Gulls are deemed to be such a problem in this city that the council last year considered a cull or putting them on conrtaception somehow???? Think they find the abundance of Ronald McDonald left overs and numerous other take aways littering the pavements too hard to resist...dont think its natures problem somehow...

Carlos said...

Stewart,
You're nearly out of patience... well, I don't want to sound melodramatic or black or grey, but in these last days mine runned out. There's a Fernando Pessoa poem, Isto, that describes how I feel right now. Perhaps you can help translating it, cause even that's to much for me now:

"Tudo que faço ou medito
Fica sempre na metade.
Querendo, quero o infinito.
Fazendo nada é verdade.
Que nojo de mim me fica
Ao olhar para o que faço!
Minha alma é lúcida e rica,
E eu sou um mar de sargaço-
Um mar onde bóiam lentos
Fragmentos de um mar de além ...
Vontades ou pensamentos?
Não o sei e sei-o bem."

Deepak Gopi said...

Hi:)Seeing the first photo I thought that it was Banares(India).
I couldnt find a producer:(:(:(
Good day

Analía said...

“If the thunder doesn't get you, the lightning will” and the lightening got me today… Everyday, I get up and come to my PC, I load my blog and sit down to read the comments that my friends have left to me. I feel less lonely in life with you. I didn’t see any of your comments yesterday nor today, so I came to see what was going on….the lightening. I was shocked by the title of your post, now I’m afraid too.
The seagull you captured with your camera and told you “something” reminded me something very different, it brought to me the lines of one of my favourite books “JUAN SALVADOR GAVIOTA” (Jonathan Livingstone Seagull) a beautiful bird with a strong will and determined to NEVER GIVE UP.
(Here are too pages, in English and Spanish to read this short but inspiring story http://www.szepi.hu/irodalom/jonathan/jonatan2.html
http://club.telepolis.com/jesusagrario/gaviota/juansgaviota.htm )
I’m sad today and to be honest a bit angry too….sorry Mile, but I’m writing this with my eyes full of tears. So, you want to give up? Then do it, desert us, desert me and fly. I’m too used to watching people who have touched my soul leave….this wouldn’t be any different I guess. The idea of having someone looking after me when I was down was nice while it lasted….remember? “I am watching you! Te estoy a mirarte!” that was you after my Heavy Rain Post…
But, my friend, there’s nothing I can say or do if you think it’s time to quit, no matter how loud I shout “Please, don’t give up!” because not all the seagulls are like JUAN/ JONATHAN, I’m not like him either…that’s why sometimes I need stronger seagulls to teach me how to rise and fly once and again…but that’s not your job, is it?…. so feel free to give up....

“….Get down! Seagulls never fly in the dark! If you were meant to fly in the dark, you'd have the eyes of an owl! You’d have charts for brains! You'd have a falcon's short wings! There in the night, a hundred feet in the air, Jonathan Livingston Seagull - blinked. His pain, his resolutions, vanished.
Short wings! A falcon's short wings! That's the answer! What a fool I've been! All I need is a tiny little wing, all I need is to fold most of my wings and fly on just the tips alone! Short wings!....” JLS

I can’t go on and I have said too much… I wish you were like JUAN, though. With love, Ani

Icarus said...

A Translation for my dear friend Carlos, of the poem by Fernando Pessoa, which he included above. Carlos, se não te importa, traduzi no meu estilo habitual, quer dizer, o que chamo "transcreation", pois acho mais adequada à mensagem do FP, tá?

"Something"

"Everything I do or think
Is always half-done, half-thought.
When I want, I want the infinite;
But I do nothing to attain it.
How I despise myself
When I contemplate what I do!
My soul is lucid, rich,
And I am an ocean of sea-weed,
In which float slow fragments
From a sea beyond.
Wishes, or thoughts?
I do not know and I know too well."
***********
Sim, julgo que o FP consegue illustrar perfeitamente a situação, amigo.
O que está à acontecer connosco? Acho que vou tentar ligar contigo hoje à noite....até logo.
***********

Heavy, indeed. And awful timing. But it is the way it is, as ever.

Icarus said...

Audrey, we don't seem to have that problem here and there are gulls all over the place. This may be stating the obvious, but the gulls have been around for longer than the McDogburger. Can you popthis one in the council's suggestion box for me, please? Leave the gulls alone, live with them and CULL McDonalds instead!
Analia, it's a sweet book, I read it when it first appeared & could indentify. I've lived a long time like a kind of seagull - I've had to, in a way. But I have also flown too near the sun. I've had to accept that. That is kind of what now is about.

Nabeel said...

hmmm .. so you switched haan .. i switched when it first came out .. months ago .. many problems but all has been taken care of .. what kinda problems are you running into?

Great picture .. did you have to wait for it to fly off?

tsduff said...

I love your photos - mostly I like the one which is the sweet seagull, poised on the edge of flight, and of hope, launching off the edge, feet barely letting go...

Why would you give up your blog? I hope you don't. It is a neat outlet for you, and a bonus for us out here in blogland, who enjoy your continous offerings. Thanks S. PS: I've been lamenting the blogger changes all day - have lost numerous posts and had to retype them... grrrrrrrr!!!!

Manuel Tendero Gil said...

hola unas fotos preciosas un saludo y FELIZ NAVIDAD PARA TI Y LOS TUYOS